Hookups have always been my thing, and expanding new ways of playing has me . . . curious. The idea of submitting to someone’s total domination and care? It feels right when not much else in my life has.
Dominance and submission have always been things I need in my life–even when it made me lose someone I loved. It’s a thrilling, fulfilling spark when a submissive hands control over to me. And, for the right man, at the right time, maybe I need to be the one forced to my knees.
I’ve never understood the need to be submissive . . . or dominant, for that matter. Trust doesn’t come easily for me. But there was that one time I watched my best friend with his Sir, and it roused something in me I don’t want to admit. Just like I can’t acknowledge out loud how alone I feel.
Then my friend, Jordan, decides to play with David, a dominant we both know, and I think I’m jealous. They intrigue me separately, but Jordan and David together makes my interest even more explosive. Maybe, I want to let go, to let someone else to take the reins, so I can just be. When the three of us decide to explore together, I realize how good it can feel to be submissive, but I like the other side of it, too. Discovering both my submissive and dominant side with them is just playing. I don’t have it in me to fall in love with one person, so how can I risk the pain of loving two?